Midnight Escapade

hi there, will you be my friend?

2009-07-19T14:27:00.004+08:00

click5 makes me feel strangely deja vu-ish,
it's quite scary since it has been so long..
many seconds minutes days weeks years and a half :D

'ello i don't make sense (:

i love my private blog, it looks pretty, with pretty cool pictures (which i don't think are cool at all but that's besides the point). i love it so much i'm neglecting ~~this blog~~.
negligence;

haha, parallels.

I've been really antisocial D: fairly. SIGHS. but i guess it's alright.
really cant wait to complete my history project, then i'll complete my OTHER work and start MUGGING for blocks (: cant wait. i need to do welllll ): more like, w.a.n.t.

oooh and the song just ended.

2009-06-25T18:42:00.001+08:00

school's starting (:
i am really stone today, like every other day as well :P
sleep; stone; slack.

SLC facil's outing at vivo yesterday!
went out at bout 10+, met the facs at 2.30pm, watched transformers/played with water like little kiddos (while zhixian zilians alone!)
it was really fun, sad that i'd to leave early ): at 2.30 & at 7.30..
ohwells. (: it was fun anyways :D

new phone, stupid nokia D: mom bought N97 and so she bought me N85.
i think her's cooler. but STILL, nokia's still stupid.
dont like it.

TK and NY sent us letters, my sister thought they had finally come to their senses and suspend school,
BLEAH :/ travel declarations and what-nots~

spent the entire afternoon choosing a blogskin for my new blog, posted twice :D
and from now i shall blog on two blogs!
since that's the emo (-faints-) one, i shall only blog `bout cheerful happenings here (:

that leaves nothing, actually.

sokthxbye.

<3

2009-06-18T21:13:00.005+08:00

you are confusing me ):
and so i'm a confused child;
i'll be a troubled teen;
sometime later, an angst adult :o

bleah :/
alliteration! (:

IMUN@AC isnt exactly..all that interesting, still, the people there are fun :D
vietnam, indonesia and cuba waged a warrr.
walter's the delegate of cuba.
quote: " cuba is horny. "
SPECPOL is cool.
clara is <3
NYDC sec3s are awesome.
it's the last day tmr.
people are crashing.
cant wait (:

seeyou! <3

2009-06-17T23:11:00.004+08:00

The midnight carousel. so this is how it actually looks like ):

it's really repulsive of me.
&you know that you're lying.
horrid liar ):
shy away from the rest of the world and attempt to deceive yourself.
masking emotions never actually work, you see.
I'LL START HATING YOU.
albeit it is not as though you actually bother.

my posts are like random streams of thoughts that arent actually connected, just like non-stop ranting.

-rants-

Sometimes
Two steps back is just what lovers need
Not knowing that it's love that makes us free
So I'll be brave and retreat
~Deborah Gibson : I Will Let You Go

Devotion eludes; And in sadness I lumber

2009-06-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

disgusting. very.
ALL THREE OF YOU.

i want slc ):
or that Time Turner thingum that Hermione has ):

rewind. playback. pause.

i like fullstops.
they make me sound snappish.
and i think im angsty now.
so its quite alright for me to sound that way.
though that does not really constitute reason.
nope (:

and now i am tired. so i feel less, weird..
thats good right? ^^
so i shall study for wsc now,
then i'll go sleep (: cause i am sleepy o.o

-yawns-
im tired!

2009-06-07T14:53:00.003+08:00

ok unlocked blog + deleted those horrible posts,
shant scold people that much :D

SLC WAS SO AWESOME!! <3
per[fac]tion!

note to self: shall post something later (:

MUGGG

#23 (:

2009-04-26T22:32:00.004+08:00

Hey dear girl,

We know it’s not easy, growing up. It never was and never will be, no? (:
But it shall be alright because we’re all here.
Things tend to get a liitttleee complicated, secondary school,
it’s when everything start crashing down and hitting you real hard― school, friends, relationships (hopefully not so :P )

You’re really different, in a special sort of way ^^

We’ll try as we can, promise. Yet in the long run, you’ll have to face all these alone.
I guess all of these sounds really solemn and distant but it’s the truth! reallyyyy… I cannot lie, not to you at least (:

Loves,
me <3

_______
Shes got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

this love<3

2009-04-23T21:10:00.006+08:00

cause i wasnt allowed to have icecream, or anything sweet/sugarish ):

i must one day be able to draw well (:
and when i do, i'll draw a guy on the very first page of a pretty pretty sketch book,
cause currently the farthest i can go is drawing the back of him.
ahwells ^^

JGsnight, tmr. i hope that hwa chong will win (:
jiayouuu!
i think it'll be really fun tomorrow, other than the fact that WE'VE TO BE IN BLAZERS + CLIP UP OUR FRINGE *horrors*
i seriously dont get why we've to clip up our fringe! we're not even speaking T^T
dont like it, at all, when ive to clip up my fringe ): i look really horrible, like, worse than everrrrr.
actually, it doesnt really matter that much how others think, but i just dont like it!!

rant rant rant.

a.his/a.lit/math/bio.
going to die for them D: shant bother explaining, its really boring listening to me rant about school work and mugging, and extremely annoying too! :P

cant wait for taiwan trip! sleeping with Esther~ <3
i hope she doesnt mind me, taking hours in the shower.
and hopefully she wont get pissed throughout the trip
(i'm really afraid when you get pissed you know! )
OH AND SHOPPING WITH ANGELINE SHALL BE AWESOME!! <3
room service!!

shall go start on philo journal,
i think it was due last week...hmm....

2009-04-18T17:47:00.004+08:00

i absolutely adoreeeee the sky, it's always pretty ^^

i love ice cream too, and just `bout any sweet stuff, edible or otherwise *hintshints*
island creamery~been hovering around there these days, often enough.
MUDPIE!! <33 sudden cravings for ice cream (vanilla with lots and lots of hundreds and thousands on it!), lollies, donuts, brownies~
_

i aspire to be a chao-mugger :D
(albeit i can already hear esther sniggering away T^T)
but i am i am i am i am going to be one,
just wait and see :D
i shall start studying tmr!
HA.

yay jiayou crystal! *positive*

_

i love loads of stuff
sugarcandiesphilolessonscloudsfriends
coffeemuggingsongshistorychemistrytv
starsmirrorssleeppoemsbarbiebrownies
[...]

<3!

i want lots and lots of love

2009-04-09T21:38:00.005+08:00

panic attacks, again.
i need something to calm me down ):

ive decided that this post shall be dedicated to rants and what-nots, so, shoo! if you cant be bothered.
(ohno i sound angst)

not been doing anything lately.. *stares at the list of work undone* thank goodness its good friday tmr ^^ i shant be online/ touch my phone/ make a single phone call tmr, until i complete ALL (if not most) of my work. this means that i'll be ignoring many people, and im really sorry bout it. And actually, ive been really free these days, ever since jgs ended, for us. yet i just didnt want to start on work, which is badbadbadbadbadbadbadbadbad ):

ok enough of me not doing work, i'll probably go on for days so STOP.IT.CRYSTAL!!

collected my ic!! ;D it looks horrible, but the prospect of collecting it (before i did, this morning) made me feel all-grown-up! then i felt kinda scared and i-want-a-hug-ish cause i dont want to grow old. i want to stay 14, or return to sec2. (cause sec3 life really sucks.) then again, its not possible ): meanwhile, it shall stay right at the bottom of my drawer, hopefully i'll rmb its there.

so so so moody these days, i dont like feeling moody, no one does, ya? and it sort of feels worse when people around me tries to cheer me up, cause then it becomes an obligation to be smiling.. but still, i really <3 you all (: i think i have awesome classmates& lovely friends, and that makes everything a whole lot happier =)

i want someone who will gladly(or just pretend to!) listen to me whine/bitch about life, understand and go "ya, ya, i think so too/ its alright.."

many just dont want to accept the truth that im no longer hardworking (like i even was in the first place!) im getting dumb, airheaded (WHATEVER I SHANT BOTHER ANYMORE), stupid, silly, lazy, irritating, annoying, insignificant, random, useless, whatever-other-words-applicable. crystal, im really disappointed in you. you are capable of doing well and yet, you refuse to. you're really horrible and you're making me sad.

cabbed home today, i hate taxis. they make me feel sick.
but i had no other choice, so =P
&at least the uncle was nice (:

my thoughts are playing hopscotch, hop-hop-hop!
and im being childish ):
actually, im really mature, my mom thinks so too :D i just need to behave sec3.

I feeeeeel whinyyyyyyy......

2009-04-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPINESS is like a crystal,
Fair and exquisite and clear,
Broken in a million pieces,
Shattered, scattered far and near.
Now and then along life’s pathway,
Lo! some shining fragments fall;
But there are so many pieces
No one ever finds them all.

You may find a bit of beauty,
Or an honest share of wealth,
While another just beside you
Gathers honor, love or health.
Vain to choose or grasp unduly,
Broken is the perfect ball;
And there are so many pieces
No one ever finds them all.

Yet the wise as on they journey
Treasure every fragment clear,
Fit them as they may together,
Imaging the shattered sphere,
Learning ever to be thankful,
Though their share of it is small;
For it has so many pieces
No one ever finds them all.

~PRISCILLA LEONARD

happiness is the crystal ball from heavens which had descended upon earth,
and upon contact, it shattered into smithereens.
mortals search high and low to find these bits and pieces, yet-
no one finds them all.

cool cool poem (:

just woke up after being lulled to sleep (=
fell asleep while i was on the phone... :P

~~dont want to do workkkkkkk..~~ i shall do well :]

ohno, please cheer up )=

2009-04-03T02:31:00.004+08:00

and its 2.32am.
hopefully, lit will be done by 3 and
i can START on history essay/reflections.
be done by 4.30am;
go sleep so parentswontfigurethatididnt,
and at 5, prepare for

SCHOOL. :D

i can/shall just stare at your photos forever and ever and not get sick of it (=

2009-04-03T00:37:00.006+08:00

i hate it when i have,
panic attacks.

it hurts.

)=

2009-04-01T00:32:00.005+08:00

happy april fools' day!
no one believes me when i say i'm secretly crushing on them! :o thats so sad!

after much drama/confession/crap:

flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
youve hurt me..
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
first you doubt my crush for you. and now,
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
this
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
whatever more, i cant take it *faints*
Yew Loong says:
nooo...wake up!
Yew Loong says:
-applies cpr-
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
*refuses to*
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
shant bother anymore... im so hurt :(
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
OUCH
Yew Loong says:
...well, u could always tape up ur heart :D
Yew Loong says:
dun be sad...
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
我的心,已破碎成一万,一百万的碎片.这是无法弥补的.破碎的心就仿佛是撒到了满地上的水,永远,永远也不能回到以往那样.
Yew Loong says:
woa...cheem
Yew Loong says:
mmm...i'm sure if there's a will, there's a way...肯定能弥补的 :D
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
但要弥补这破碎的心,单靠我一个人是不够的.没人相信我...
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
就连你....也是,这么样....
Yew Loong says:
你还要谁相信你，你才能弥补心呢？
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
任何人相信我,都已不重要了...因为,你不相信我...
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
心痛，真的好痛好痛。看着你的背影，第一滴泪从我面颊留了下来，伤心不是因为想念你，而是因为你就那样从身旁擦肩而过… 你真的已忘了我吗？
Yew Loong says:
woa...sounds so touching...but i have nvr left or forgotten u leh 0.o
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
yeah.. true :P
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
bye my love, for you know that my heart will always beat for you<3
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
OMG :P
Yew Loong says:
...that's uber mushy !
Yew Loong says:
i'm sure u will be finding of more ways to trick me in ur dreams la :D
flaming flowers that brightly blaze | swirling clouds in violet haze says:
Bye
Yew Loong says:
Bye

whole lot of chinese! i think its cool to type stuff in chinese :D and funnnnn...like, everything that comes out seem relatively emo~and well i shall just give up on trying to trick people this way! :D
not going to work anywayyyy ):

goodnight, im tired...
lovesloves,
crystal.

2009-03-29T13:08:00.006+08:00

so it ended, there and then. Well at least, for us.

and i'm sad ): cause we wont be training together anymore after this.
all the yw-try-agains/chow bear/ attempts-to-skip-dinner/ bridge/ ice cream/ i-would-never-games/ photos/ gum/ CONFERENCE CALL/ last day of the vacation emoing, its been lovely training with you guys<3

eewei,nettie,nicolette(mamaduckie!),chelsea<3

you three mustmustmustmustmust return, as promised! (or we'll be reallyyyy sad& disappointed =[ )

still, i cant bring myself to accept that it has ended. (and the chelsea-drawing-the-diamond-card-will-mean-COUGHS-dying didnt work, so it shall remain so. ) but i'm happy, to have been on this team, all six of us + the rest of nydc. <3

____________________________________

I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must nto lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie
I must not lie

again.

2009-03-29T12:52:00.002+08:00

Hi,
friend,

You’re really confusing.

xoxo,
me.

2009-03-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

i'm tired, so tired i cant hold on,
and,

you drift away.

2009-03-16T11:50:00.010+08:00

What should be told’s known and so here’s whats left untold. (QUESTION MARK? 0.o)

I think I’ve developed the habit of speaking in roundabouts, and it’s sort of confusing myself? Much as I would to others, perhaps.

Silly faith, you led me on ):

Block tests in a week’s time, clashing directly with quarters and hell lot of other stuff, like, homework. Deadlines wouldn’t be met and my teachers will guilt-trip me (OH NO PTM =[ ). It’s not like I’m not even trying, maybe just not enough, but still!

And so ive realized, all my posts are somehow or another related to schoolwork and studies :P and so here’s the really long/lovely to-do-list <3

· Chem. Ws 9-11 --> next monday
· IH assignment --> TMR!
· History Journal--> next monday
Reflection on felon disenfranchisement Based on article ‘ensuring access to the ballot box: voting rights in USA.
· Philo Journal --> OVERDUE
· IH topical Presentation --> next monday (?)
· Math Practice Papers --> next monday
· CME find a story 和谐 --> next monday
· MPP --> next monday
· Annotate King Lear --> next monday
· Clear Math notebook notes --> next monday
· Clear Chemistry, stuff, filing --> next monday
· Get notes for BIO --> next monday
· Bio WS 4.1 --> next monday
· NYAA --> (?)
· Math GEO 2 --> next monday
· Bio SIA --> next monday
· Lit SIA --> (?)
· LA SIA --> (?)
· History SIA --> (?)
· Chinese SIA + book reading --> (?)
· Chemistry SIA --> (?)

so much for the school not allowing teachers to give us holiday homework ):

loving Vincent once more (: it's like a happy sweet sort of bereavement, through the voice of chloe.

2009-03-08T13:56:00.013+08:00

OBS!

To think of it, wasn’t that bad I guess ^^ bonded a lot as a watch! (which sadly, was only half of the class =[ ) did stuff like abseiling, trekking for more than 10km with a 20+kg bagpack, kayaked for the entire day in the rain, JETTY JUMPED! Cried a lot, a lot a lot a lot :P such a crybaby ya. Still, I survived it! <3missed many during this trip, haha, missed those I thought I would never and didn’t really missed those I thought I would, well, mostly.

Trekking in the rain was fun/nice =)

We spoke of much stuff, at camp site 2, as we ate prunes/apples/oreo =P and they don’t believe me when I said that I had had only one crush or that I don’t have a bf! )= and now I shall proclaim it to be TRUE! :D

Watch 郑和!<3

- Aircon! HUIHAN =P
- Charlotte
- Charrise
- Crystal
- Esther
- Joyan
- Kylie (who sadly left after day 3 cause of back injury =[ )
- Hyo Lim
- Sim Hwee
- Terrorist (o.o) HUIQI
- And JILLLL!!!

You guys are really awesome, aircon& charlotte for being the most awesome jungle band, charrise for being funnily-exasperated, esther for being super-human, Joyan for being the best buddy ever (when I start whining and all :P ), kylie for being kylie, hyo lim for being there to remind us of time!, sim hwee for being really cute and sweet, hui qi for the really yummy dinner on the last day ^^

Haha the other half of our class had a really funny instructor, go read her blog and you’ll know! WE MISS YOU ALL, our other half! <3

And now that im home, hrm.. HOMEWORK + SCHOOL :o Great :D I shall attempt not to be too freaked out by how ive managed the entire of my day from 8am till now doing nothing :P

Oh, and its MAS tmr (= yayy hope that I’ll be fun! ^^ weiren and benjamin’ll be there too :D pree team, whatever that means, someone explain to me?

JGs this friday! =] jiayou!! 2 wins and 1 more to go ^^ haha, 4th time against cat high in 2months, cool...anyway, yay nydc shall rock =D

shall start on work, later ^^

2009-02-26T22:27:00.001+08:00

I want a childhood memory ): or at least something I can remember and crave for when I grow older! Well, other than loads of candies/chocolates/ice cream/donuts/etcetera.etcetera, which is probably something I won’t grow out of anyway =P during Chinese today, 李老师 went through this passage on childhood memories, and told us bout HER childhood, sort of. Will be writing an essay on it after OBS, it’ll be fun ^^ (other than that I can’t think of what to write on D: )'

JGs tmr, hopefully NY will win (:

THBT adultery should be criminalized, we’re opposition. I think it’s the most interesting motion of the three tomorrow night! Case set was really fun. YW was really funny with his seriously lame jokes and analogies =D then sometimes I got a liitttleeee too emotional bout the points, ohwell, it was FUN kaeyzx.

OBS next week, looking forward to it, totally ^^ albeit ive heard loads about how GROSS and DISGUSTING it’ll be, but, ohwells, it’ll come when it comes (= cant be THAT bad, no?

Week 9 -- > OBS

Week 10 -- > MAS, mock asean summit! (HCI)

Missing the entire week of school for it
=
Missing THREE TESTS + TWO PRESENTATIONS :o

And block tests’ coming soooooooonnnnnnnnnn…. Some of them will be clashing with JGs, awesomezx luhzx. I want to do well )= like really well, which is quite impossible, considering how im starting to doze off halfway through lessons and how ive been missing so many lessons D:

NOOOOOOooooOOOOooOOOOoooooOO………!!!

nvm, I shall encourage myself -- *jiayou!* --- *you can do it!* --- * --- *goodluck!* --

Yay history’s done! I’m highly efficient today! Well, at least for the past one hour after having slacked for the idk5/6/7hours before that =P I shall sleep earlier this week, so that I can build up my immune system ^^

Night!<3

2009-02-16T02:27:00.000+08:00

its now, 2.07(edit: 2.26am!), not started on lit assignment )=

completed like, quite a few pieces of work today, still.

tonnes left.

1. History task ppt + speech

2. History SIA mind map

3. History SIA concept-write-up

Reflection on felon disenfranchisement Based on article ‘ensuring access to the ballot box: voting rights in USA.

4. Lit SIA ppt

5. Lit SIA reflections

6. Chinese journal

7. Math worksheet QINE.2

8. History Journal

9. Philo Journal

10. Research on the old summer palace

wellwell, i'll finish them no worries :p
i want to sleep! and go like ride on carousels and all~ yet sadly i cant )=

and i think that the chinese compo's really cool. thanks ^^ spent lots of time copying it out onto paper. though i like, uh, changed lots of it but stil, thank you for like helping me with it ^^ and all of you who've helped me (or offered to) with my work, you guys are awesomezxz (=

shall start on lit now (haha, yes i know i said that to you like, 10hrs ago~! )
nvm, i'll complete it and hopefully sleep by, say, 4am ^^ then i'll reach at round 4.15am and play for about an hour before i leave k (= [though i'll probably doze off or sth :P ]

gosh im not making sense.

its late. goodnight. sleepwell!

(while poor crystal struggles with her assignment!) *hahahaha serves her rightttt*

OH NO I AM GOING INSANE TALKING TO MYSELF AND ALL.

1) Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle mode

2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3) YOU MUST WRITE THE SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4) Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

5) Tag 6 people.

1. Are you male or female
Dear Maria count me in - All time Low (Maria’s a female right? Idk how this works, but ya, cheers!)

2. Describe yourself
Angel to you, Devil to me-Click5 (lalalala~)

3. What do people feel when they're around you
End of the World- Armor for Sleep (is that good or bad? )

4. Describe your current relationship
Collapse- Saosin (what relationship? Currently rushing work, and yup, seriously feel like crashing onto the laptop :P )

5. Where would you like to be now?
The Sharpest Lives- MCR

6. How do you feel about love?
Remembering Sunday- All Time Low (well, gone before I long knew?)

7. What's your life like?
Stay Young- We the Kings (at the rate I’m going, perhaps it should be D** young, too painful to type it even :o)

8. What would you ask if you only had one wish?
Lay All your love on me- ABBA (wasted wish much?)

9. If someone says "Is this okay?", what would you say?
This is How we do- All time Low

10. How would you describe yourself?
Broken- Secondhand Serenade (how so ): I’m like so complete :D with homework filling up the gaps and 2 hours of sleep a day, yeah im cool. )

11. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Follow and Feel- Saosin (everything, if I chose to like him/her, be it friend or anything more than that, so.)

12. How do you feel today?
Smile for the camera (camera shy, bye~)

13. What do your friends think of you?
Hold the Door- Armor for Sleep (lol, I’m not who you think I am and you just wont accept it)

14. What do you think of your parents?
Disaster- Hawthorne Heights (not on purpose :p but they’re lovely <3>

15. What do you think about very often?
You Belong with me- Taylor swift (no I do not think bout anything along those lines! Not even close to what I think bout.)

16. What is 2+2?
Awake- Secondhand Serenade (no, I want to sleep!! wantwantwant badly )

17. What do you think of the person you like?
Head over Heals- Boys Like Girls (mm..)

18. What is your life story?
Headlines Read out- We the Kings

19. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Both ways- Quiet Drive ( 我不知道..)

20. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Some body else’s arms- Armor for Sleep (0.o*blinks* he/she exists?)

21. What will you dance to during your wedding?
I’ll take my chances- Click5 (uh huh… so it’ll just be I’ll-try-my-luck-hope-he’s-the-right-guy?)

22. What will they play at your funeral?
The Last Song Ever- Secondhand Serenade (thanks. loads ;P )

23. What is your biggest fear?
Language Lessons- Hawthorne Heights( lit assignment! Its now 2.30 am and I’ve not started on it]= )

24. What is your hobby/interest?
Love story- Taylor swift (~love.. lol.)

25. What do you think of your friends?
I’ve a dream- ABBA

Tagged People:

whoever who even reads this un-known (perhaps no longer that unknown) blog :)

2009-02-08T23:55:00.004+08:00

OK FINE I CANT PASSWORD PROTECT THIS OTHER POST SO.

"this post is password protected."

type password: HERE. _______
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sorry, access denied, you're free to get lost now (= goodnight.

2009-02-08T23:36:00.005+08:00

GONNA DIE YOUNG AND IT’S ALL MY FAULT.

Started off the week pretty alright, rushing but still, alright.

Friday came, Saturday too, still fine. (or at least that was what I thought, didn’t even bother flipping the pages of my sch journal).

Then there, Sunday, 44mins to the next day and supposed have been asleep ~2hrs ago. Woke up knowing(REALIZING) that there’s this (insert adjective) amount of homework left undone and a school bag that’s still empty.

goinggoinggiong crazy I want a ranting partner FAST and NOW.
Don’t want to bother asking for extensions for all the assignments cause it isn’t going to help matters much, anyway. Still have to complete those work in the end.

I DON’T WANT TO BE FREAKING HUMANS WHO JUST LIVE THEIR LIVES LIVING IT. DAMNIT.

Yesyes, language, girl. Shall control, not. Cantcantcantcantcant. And this post WAS supposed to be happy )=

Letssee:
- Invest
- SIAs, tons of it.

Lit
LA
Chinese
Chem.
Bio
IH
History (DIEEEEEEE….)

- Assignments, 4 and counting
- CLC lecture class written assignment (read: TEST)
- Bio SPA test.
- Chem quizzes
- Math revision of, whatever-i-missed-while-falling-asleep-during-lessons
- INSPIRE.

All by this week, oh, just great. What more can I say? Right, other than that- THE WEEK AFTER SHALL BE BETTER.

Aint that pathetic? To be looking forward to week7 when week 6 isn't even HERE yet?

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SHOOTSISOUNDEMOIAMNOTNOTNOTNOTNOTNOTNOT )= just, concerned and flustered and slightly freaked out.

No mom I cant sleep now, much as I would really love to. Yes, its been way over the time I promised, but you see, I am incapable of sleep.

I could drink a case of you darling and I would still be on my feet

2009-01-27T19:47:00.008+08:00

AND IM GONNA GET MY IC SOON!~ (once I apply for it, that is.)

Homework day, which essentially means that I’m supposed to be completing most (if not all) of whatever work I have. So lets see, what I’ve done:

History assignment 1: due- 29 Jan --> not started

Test, King Lear: 28 Jan --> have not even read the book

Biology Quiz 1: 29 Jan -->? whatsthetopicagain??

Hurray.

Mood: quiet. (maybe its cause I’ve slept for so long just now, sort of stonish perhaps.)

One day I shall write a song (:
When I finally learn to complete my work. (which is when, m’dear?)

JGs motion out this sat, *panics*. Well, albeit it’s really no point panicking since I’m not doing anything bout it. not completing my work, for instance.

Missed the solar eclipse yesterday, felt sort of sad, like the i-had-waited-all-these-while-and-yet sort of sad. but it’s quite weird feeling sad over such stuff. Yet if not such stuff then what should I feel sad bout? Ok nvm confused again. (why do I like to confuse myself so much!)

there was this night when there were lots and lots and lots of stars, perhaps more then 20? I didn’t really count. 23^rd Jan I think. I love stars just as much as I love clouds, love clouds just as I love the moon, as much as the sun, as much as everything.

ooh and guess what, the sky’s dark now. Its night time- still not done with any work yet. Lets try turning that zero into a positive number: I have three homework left (excluding all the rest not due on wed/thurs). see, I’m positive (:well, that’s actually not a lot, but considering the amount of time I actually need to spend on each of them the that its not 7.45pm, chances are that I wouldn’t finish ):

JIAYOU PERSON! (who is actually really me, so it should be jiayou me instead, but its quite sad and weird to say jiayou to myself so i said jiayou person, who IS really me. *pauses* - nevermind.)

Yay and I think love letters are cool.

I want to write you a love letter
On the underside of a leaf
Have you sing it out loud for me
baby please,
wont you please.

Pelting rain on my window,
Sing me my melody
Play me our song.
Though I miss the times together,
Darling please let me go.

Twenty three years down the road,
It hasn’t once been easy, no.
They told if I drink I forget you
It’s all a lie.
Your silhouette fades away.

2009-01-16T20:45:00.005+08:00

314!!<3>hello 2009~ i'm starting to accept you, that you're here to stay.

it feels as though 09's coming to an end though, like the EXCITEMENT's over, kinda.

nothing much to look forward to, other than tomorrow, which will be over soon, after tomorrow.

today's a slack day, missing 4 periods cause msteng's not here, 2philo&2lit periods. we're suppose to be commenting on the latest post on the lit blog, but everyone's just doing random stuff/listening to funny songs/watching vids blablablablablablabla... 2 commenting-work-thing to be done by today, one on antigone and the other on the little nyonya/greek tragedies. like, how am i suppose to be able to comment when i've not watched the series?

9.04. bored.

wsc meeting later on, wonder whats it going to be about. going to start mugging soon- resolutions:

1. complete mugging for wsc by end feb

- possibility (%): 45

- start date: after completing all the assignments in my to-do-list, which, just double folded btw (read: never. )

2. get at least one gold medal and five other medals =D

3. team gets through to WORLD FINALS! (which will be held in nanyang ! <3>

9.23 am. not so bored.

(echos from behind crystal: i am so siannnnnn, so sian so sian~~~~) think thats yujie :P

shall upoload the photos from the Dionysian Festival later on, when i get home (:

jean's so funnyyyyyyyy and nice. just like everyone else in 314!

we rock~

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home(:

here are the photos!

jean!

copper (II) sulphate CRYSTALS!!

limbo~

the other four of my desk partners ;D

antigone, dying..dying...DEAD.

antigone, version II

CREON=jean=person in green bathing robes =P

2009-01-13T22:15:00.006+08:00

eeyore~~isnt he cutteeeee (: looks like a little emo and yet at-peace :P
but i prefer the soft-toy-eeyore, as compared to the plastic kind, since, idk.

hm ok a loongggg post! lets see, what shall i post bout? life's quite mono these days, so there's really nothing much :P

1. today's a nice day, tmr shall be one too ^^

yay today's nice, not exactly perfect-nice-kinda-nice, but most of the stuff went on quite well i suppose. 314's an a.w.e.s.o.m.e class! everyone's so enthu and hyper-ish. though i really miss 204!~ minqhee's birthday's coming, wonder what i should get her... everyone still looks the same (well it has only been a month or so.. )

2. SRJCs this sat! (:

NYDC shall rock!!! <3>reminder: take a photo of the team for archiving! enting/chels/angeline and i are going to tie our hair the same way this sat ;P hopefully mr kaw doesnt kill us, since there's really nothing wrong with it! night training today, i love night trainings :D the four of us sat at the table outside the board room and had dinner together (: and cause mdm o mis-counted, so there was a packet of dinner less, so we sort of shared (= haha that scene was so heartwarming <3 oh then we tried to cam-whore, but quite FAILED ;P

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not much homework today (: other than studying for a chemistry quiz, on this topic we've learnt in sec1, so its sort of a recep chapter. bio practical's so fun and miss lye's super cute ;P she greets us with that "gooood morrrningggggg classsssss" tone, you know sort of like the way students often greets the teachers :P

to-do-list:
1. history SIA mind-mapping thing
2. chem SIA proposal
3. lang arts SIA proposal
4. IH SIA
5. Chinese book review
6. read: king lear + the great expectations
7. ANTIGONE!!! (which is for tmr, btw, i just remembered :P )
8. nomination form for this teacher (=
9. chinese journal (every tuesday)
10. math class discussion ws
11. math "goals setting" worksheet
12. chem quiz (1 x every lesson)
13. bio worksheet

thats all i can recall, since i;m too lazy to go get my journal~the order's quite screwed up though..

this post is not exactly long, cant really tell anyway :P
NONETHELESS.... its the first time i'm actually updating my blog so-very-often, so.

2009-01-12T21:33:00.001+08:00

did next to nothing today, so much for attempting to be a mugger.
-failed-
utter failure ):
wanted to type something nice and cheery but i'll just fail at it, like everything else ):
so the post shall end,

here.

the first night, they met.

2009-01-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

first post (=
its a pretty skin isnt it?
done with most of my work, 'cept for that history essay.. which she, i mean 'i', mustmustmust complete before midnight! mainly for two reasons: 1. my mom will switch off the modem, so that i will have no choice but to sleep
2. midnight-carousel~~ haha :P
caught a cold cause i've been hiding in my room since morning,
well, minus the eating/bathing/bla times...
urgh my mind is now oozy and i'm feeling giddy-ish now ): the stuff i'm writing for history's like contradicting ): i dont like falling sick ):
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no no but i shant frown :) its too sad and depressing~

GOODLUCK FOR TMR!! (= get like straight As or sth! :p

sleepwell everyone who reads this <3
crystal's going to complete her essay and sleep before 12~!